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This weekend was interesting to say the least. Saturday, I passed out and hit my head pretty hard. Andrew was working his part-time job so he wasn’t home to help me. I called him at work and he wanted me to have my parent’s take me to the emergency room because of some health issues I was having the previous couple days. I called my parent’s and they said they would come pick me up and take me to their house to keep an eye on me. Something with me didn’t feel right and I knew I should have put my foot down and had them to me to the emergency room. My mom sat upstairs with me at their house while I showered and got dressed. I still felt pretty out of it. However, my parent’s just wanted to keep an eye on me. After a couple of hours I had them bring me back to my house because I was completely frustrated that they wouldn’t really listen to me and I knew I couldn’t drive myself to the ER. So that was my Saturday.
Yesterday, was Mother’s Day. We had plans with my brother in-laws family and mine to go to Tremont Tap House in Tremont, OH for brunch, however I still felt really out of it so I skipped that. My sister and I made dinner for my parents later in the day. I felt like crap but I “sucked it up” to celebrate my mom. For appetizers, we had cheese and crackers and guacamole and chips. For dinner, we made a salad, steaks, a roasted sweet potato and & fresh fig dish, and asparagus. For dessert, we had ice cream. My sister is 32 weeks pregnant and was very tired so they went home after dinner and I stuck around to do the dishes. As soon as Andrew and I got home, I went straight to bed.
I never realized how hard Mother’s Day would be for me. Knowing that I can never have my own biological child really hit me. It took all my strength not to break down all day.
This morning my parent’s were gone all morning and have plans this evening so Andrew and I watched my parent’s beagle puppy to tire her out for them. I slept on the couch while Andrew played ball with her. When we got home around 11:00AM EST, I went straight to bed. I just woke up at 2:30PM EST. I have no idea what’s going on with me but I may have to call my primary care doctor tomorrow to be checked out. I’m still extremely dizzy, nauseous and my head hurts really bad from hitting it when I passed out.
Tomorrow morning I have therapy and can’t wait. I really need it. I feel very overwhelmed with somethings and need advice.
That’s it for now. How was everyone’s Mother’s Day?
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