UGGHHH!!! I needed that so I just literally did it out loud. I sounded like a little kid all pissed off. It felt good though. It’s only 9:30AM EST here and I’m ready to go back to bed. The dogs woke me up at 6:15AM so I got up and took care of them and then sat down with a large cup of coffee and watched the news. Everything is always so negative on the news these days so I turned it off since I’m already Mrs. Cranky Pants again today.

I really don’t have much planned for the day. I’m going to try and get motivated to work out. It helps with my anxiety so maybe it will help snap me out of this foul mood. I know working out is generally good for overall mental health too. Being Bipolar sucks. I hate these mood swings and rollercoaster rides.

It’s raining here so its grey out. That sure doesn’t help my mood either. I just feel like there aren’t any positives to go off of today. I was doing this thing where I would say something positive when I had/said something negative. I was trying to change the way my thoughts worked. It’s good when you aren’t in the manic angry phase, but right now I want to tell the thing I was doing to go to h*ll.

That’s pretty much all for right now. I will blog later if something exciting happens or my mood changes.

What are your plans for the day?




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