Today I woke up and decided I needed to change my attitude. Instead of feeling sorry for myself, I’m going to look at the positives in my life. Yes, I feel extremely miserable with the flu (yes, I got the flu vaccine) and some other health issues going on — BUT I have a lot of positive things going on too.
Pictured above are Maggie and Sadie. They are my Labrador Retrievers who are the loves of my life. Maggie is almost 9 and Sadie just turned 2. These two have been here for me through everything. They are not registered therapy dogs, but they sure act like they are. When I’m sad, anxious, scared, sick or depressed they can sense it. They are silly and make me laugh, they lay their head on me so I know they are here for me and they follow me around to make sure I’m okay. They sleep as close as they can get to me. I literally can’t move but I wouldn’t change a thing. Maggie is calm and chill while Sadie still has her puppy sillies. They are both the sweetest babies and I love them both so much. Without them in my life, I would be even more lost.
I also have my family. My parent’s, sister, aunts and uncle have been here for me through everything. They may not always understand what’s going on in my head, but they are always here when I need to talk and they are good listeners, for the most part. They show their support in their own individual ways.
My husband and I might be going through our own issues, however, when I really need someone he is usually here for me. When I’m in a deep depression, he runs errands for me so I don’t have to do them. When I’m sick he is the first to ask what I need. He goes to doctor’s appointments with me. As much as we don’t get along, I appreciate everything he does for me.
My health and depression may not be the best right now, but I’m alive. I get to enjoy my dogs, my family, my good friends, cooking and working out. Now that spring is here and the weather is starting to get better, I’ll be able to spend more time outside gardening, going for walks and hikes and enjoying the sunshine.
I know it’s hard to look at the positive things in your life when struggling with mental health disorder, but try to. Trying is all any of us can do.
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