Yesterday was FINALLY a decent day. I woke up feeling energized and ready to take on the day. I woke up and went straight to my parent’s house to have coffee with my mom, came home and took the dog’s for a nice walk, did six load’s of laundry, vacuumed and washed the floor’s, worked out, went to the grocery store and made dinner. My husband and I thought that I was starting to become manic. For the past couple of weeks, I have been in a deep depression where it got to the point that I didn’t leave the house for a full week other then to go to the grocery store. I felt like I accomplished so much and was actually able to sleep through the night. During a manic state, I don’t sleep.

This morning I woke up in another good mood. I woke up and went to my parent’s house to have coffee again with my mom, took the dog’s for a walk, made lunch and then I started to get a migraine and got very tired. I laid down for a nap to try and fight the dreaded migraine but I couldn’t sleep and I got really frustrated. Frustrated isn’t the word to describe it because the migraine I was getting was pissing me off. Migraines make me SO sick. I can’t be around anyone, I have to be in the complete dark with no sounds at all, I get extremely nauseous and I usually throw up. Migraines are the worst. Unfortunately, I never fell asleep so I got up and took one of my migraine medications. Thankfully, it has gone away for the most part.

The past few day’s the weather has been really nice here in Cleveland, Ohio. I know that weather affects my mood a lot so the sunshine has been really nice. However, I still feel extremely irritable this afternoon. I hope that my mood doesn’t go back to me being really depressed. I’ve enjoyed the past two days until my migraine hit. I know everyday won’t be sunshine and rainbows and the struggles make me stronger, but I wish I could catch a break. I have to take it day to day and keep pushing on.

Are there any things you do when you feel your mood starts changing from manic to depressed or vice versa? How do you keep it stable other than medications? (I’m already on a cocktail of medication)




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