Yesterday was a rough day. This morning I woke up in a slightly better mood, but still feel off. I feel overwhelmingly tired, but I know this is due to my depression. I came downstairs, took the dogs out and fed them and got a cup of coffee. Coffee in the morning is a must to get me going!
The sun in shining and Maggie and Sadie (my Labrador Retrievers) were in a great mood playing, chewing on bones and playing ball in the house. Maggie (pictured above) is almost 9 years old and has had some health issues. However, this morning she was acting like a spring chicken running around with a ball in her mouth. I had to snap a picture of her because she looked so cute and was frisky!
My girls are not registered therapy dogs but Maggie is a registered emotional support dog. I have never taken Maggie anywhere, however, I registered her a couple years ago incase my agoraphobia and anxiety were/are so overwhelming that I need her. People have taken advantage of emotional support animals, so now there is a lot of controversy over them. I have a lot of resentment towards people taking advantage of this because people who really need them are now being questioned. I have not and never would take advantage of taking Maggie places…but enough about that.
This week I have not done much and I’m going to try and stay on a structured schedule today. My goals today are to exercise, do laundry, dust and clean the house and to make dinner. To most this seems like easy daily tasks. For me, when I am depressed these are very challenging to do most of the time. When someone is in a depressive state, getting out of bed or taking a shower can be a challenge. Yesterday, I couldn’t do that. Today, I’m starting my day early and I’m going to work on my goals for the day. After that, I’m going to set up a structured set of goals for the next few days. Hopefully, this will help me stay on top of “chores” and off of the couch feeling sorry for myself.
I have talked to several other people who suffer from depression and these individuals and my therapist have said that making easy goals to achieve are what I need to do. If I achieve these goals, it will help me feel better about myself and then I can make harder goals for myself. My moods have been so up and down the past couple months that I need to do this. Sitting around is more detrimental to me because I focus on all of the issues I’m going through. If I stay busy, it helps to keep my mind off of things.
This morning I wanted to update everyone who reached out to me yesterday in regards to my post. I appreciate all of you and thank you for caring about me so much! It means more to me than you will ever know.
Below is a picture of Sadie. Maggie and Sadie have stopped playing and are now sound asleep. This picture shows Sadie and her favorite place to sleep. We call her our 60 pound cat because she loves the top of the couches 🙂
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