Flowers make the world a little brighter!

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This week has not been the easiest, but I haven’t and still wont give up easy. I buy myself flowers on a weekly basis to brighten up the house and my mood a little bit. This week I bought tulips and freesia. Every time I walk by, I get a whiff of the beautiful freesia. Weeks like this make me remind myself that no matter what everything will be okay.

I’ve had several panic attacks this week along with terrible IBS due to my anxiety. I can’t put my finger on what is causing this extreme panic but I do know it needs to stop because my stomach is a mess. How do you figure out what is causing yours? I know there have been a few individual situations that have caused me to be extremely anxious but I know there is more to it. How do I figure that out? I do go to therapy weekly.

I’ve had one really good friend here for me this week. I’m not sure what I would do without him in my life. He’s ALWAYS there for me and tells me his honest opinion, let’s me cry to him, let’s me scream and vent, tells me when I’m wrong, helps calm my nerves, but most of all is the love of my life 🙂 Yes, we don’t always agree and we go through hard times — but no matter what, I know he’s always there. He will always be there. It’s good to have that one person, no matter who they are to be able to talk to.

I hope everyone has someone to turn to in the time of need. If you don’t, I’m always here (note: I am not a psychiatrist or psychologist and can only give my own personal opinion) and there is ALWAYS someone there to listen. If you are in desperate need, call 911 or The National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255. You can go to   for more information.


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2 Replies to “Flowers make the world a little brighter!”

  1. I love the smell of Freesia! I used to buy myself flowers every week too, I stopped doing that though…don’t know why I did, but I did. Perhaps I should take inspiration from you and start buying them again.

    I have IBS, my intestines are a mess! I used to take a medication to help with it…Have you tried any? I guess it’s just yet another thing we have to try to live with. It is just terrible to have a flare up of it! Can’t really do much, can’t really go anywhere for fear of using the bathroom on yourself! Now I have went from one end of the spectrum to another…I can’t hardly go at all anymore! That hurts! It makes my stomach crap and all that jazz.

    I don’t know what to tell you about the anxiety attacks. I definitely understand what you are going through! Are you on anything for the anxiety? I find when I am particularly stressed, in a lot of pain, things like that, I put on my headphones and listen to music as loud as I want. I play gin rummy or some other kind of game on my cell. Pretty much anything to distract me. Going outside, unless it’s bitterly cold and just taking deep breaths for a few minutes also seems to center me. I hope you can figure out what is making yours worse! If you ever need an ear or a shoulder, I am always around!

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