This week has not been the easiest, but I haven’t and still wont give up easy. I buy myself flowers on a weekly basis to brighten up the house and my mood a little bit. This week I bought tulips and freesia. Every time I walk by, I get a whiff of the beautiful freesia. Weeks like this make me remind myself that no matter what everything will be okay.
I’ve had several panic attacks this week along with terrible IBS due to my anxiety. I can’t put my finger on what is causing this extreme panic but I do know it needs to stop because my stomach is a mess. How do you figure out what is causing yours? I know there have been a few individual situations that have caused me to be extremely anxious but I know there is more to it. How do I figure that out? I do go to therapy weekly.
I’ve had one really good friend here for me this week. I’m not sure what I would do without him in my life. He’s ALWAYS there for me and tells me his honest opinion, let’s me cry to him, let’s me scream and vent, tells me when I’m wrong, helps calm my nerves, but most of all is the love of my life 🙂 Yes, we don’t always agree and we go through hard times — but no matter what, I know he’s always there. He will always be there. It’s good to have that one person, no matter who they are to be able to talk to.
I hope everyone has someone to turn to in the time of need. If you don’t, I’m always here (note: I am not a psychiatrist or psychologist and can only give my own personal opinion) and there is ALWAYS someone there to listen. If you are in desperate need, call 911 or The National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255. You can go to https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org/ for more information.
To my new followers, welcome to Smiling Through Tears. This blog is a daily account of my struggle with mental health disorders. To all of my returning followers, thank you for supporting me and following my journey.