March 3, 2012 is a day I will never forget. I was driving home in my sedan from my parents house. I was driving on a side street where the speed limit was 25, I had no stop signs or lights and I was driving very offensively and defensively. Out of nowhere a guy at an intersection driving an SUV crashed the stop sign going over 65 mph. His car flipped over mine and he was able to crawl out of one of his windows. There was a nice couple driving behind me who got out of their car to help me. My driver side door was smashed in, along with the entire front end of my car. When the police and fire department showed up, they had to get me out of my car, put me on a back board with a neck brace and race me to the closest trauma hospital. Luckily, I ended up with a sprained wrist, bumps and bruises, whip lash, a terrible back that still bothers me to this day, burns from the airbags and swollen knees. I say luckily because it could have ended a lot worse. I went to physical therapy for several months and still go once in awhile. The police told my fiance and parents that if the other driver had hit my car 2 inches closer to my door handle, I would be dead. When my parents and fiance showed up at the accident site, they thought I was going to be a lot worse than I ended up being. My dad later told me he thought I was dead based on how bad my car looked. Thank god for wearing my seatbelt.
To this day, I have extreme anxiety and panic attacks when other people drive. I am usually okay if I’m driving myself but when other people drive me around I have a very hard time. My psychiatrist believes I have PTSD from this terrible experience. I have nightmares all the time. When I drive through the intersection I start sweating and my heart races.
Please be careful when you drive and ALWAYS wear your seatbelt. Please stop and help if you see someone hurt. The people who stopped to help me, reassured me help was on the way and that everything would be okay.
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